Divine Dividends

      

  I woke up early and thought of my beautiful childhood... Nanay, my wonderful sweet Nanay made it all possible. When I became a mother, I have more appreciation for all the things she did. I wished it did not take me to become mother myself to see that enduring great love she had for me. I have a good and loving mother. Now, at 97, she would wave at me through a computer screen, ( thank goodness for "skype") . I wonder, if she still truly know me. I meant, truly know that I am her youngest babe whom she once cared for and adored.Would she think of the sweet memories I now cherished ?
       After her stroke 5 years ago, she has been feeding herself again. Watching her do a milestone of improvement is like a mother. I am sure she felt the same way, watching me when I was in her care.
       I was pregnant with my first daughter, when this book was given to me by one of my best friends, Beth. In it are compiled poems by Grace Diane Jessen. I would take it out off my shelves in this special occasion and read my favorites. One is this following :

                                      Divine Dividends

                  When a mother starts counting her fortune
                      And figures her profit and loss,
                  She considers the matters financial
                      To be unimportant and dross.

               In the balance, the things that she values
                     More highly than money or wealth
               Are the love of her noble, good husband,
                   The home that they share, and their health.

               She has blessings that she cannot measure,
                   Her faith, and her family and friends,
               And the joys she receives thrrough her children
                    Are simply divine dividends.

        Does she still feel that I am one of her divine dividends or does she wave through the computer screen and wonder, "Do I know her?" or does she try the hardest to even remember-- out of seven girls, does she particularly remember me?
       Ahh, I should not even care. My mother, my sweet lovely mother. You are one of my divine dividends. I love you with all my heart- would you read this  and say my name ?  ahh, I don't really care, that wave is enough- see you at skype !!
                                 Happy Mother's Day !!